A Song

A song
its the light in the dark
We're busy making wishes
Hanging the moon
Making promises
On stars that all fall down
Planning a future on a tomorrow
That may never come
But my heart never fears the unknown
Its happy and content
With what today brings
Maybe there is an ending
Maybe we're just playing pretend
Somehow its always been you and me
Even before we met
The paths were always meant to cross
Here's a toast to us
And the years ahead
And the places we've been
Love draws us in
Makes us closer than friends
Even when we don't mean to hurt
Bending doesn't mean we always break
We'll move on
Keeping our hearts joined through the tears
Building us up from the ground
Strengthening with each blow
I promise through these years
I'll never disappear
I will stand by your side
For better or worse
My love for life

Attached to the thoughts
Running through my head
Troubles they may come
And they may go
Stories of who I used to be
I only wish I could recall
All that time I lost
I'd like to meet the thief
who stole it away
Perhaps I remember it incorrectly
Painting myself in new lights
While others look on
Judging my actions
Feeling free never felt so confined
It came at every cost
Except my heart
That piece I managed to save
I've been dragged through hell
Wild to my soul
Rough around my edges
The stares bounce off
I laugh at the thought
You all say you know me
But what you don't see
There is a tender side
That no one really ever knew
Tough I stand
hardened through the years
Disappointing others
I just kept rolling on
Saving the best part just for me
I can't take back what I've done
I can't get back the things I've lost
Everyday is a new start
A chance to make things right again

Lies

Don't be yourself
just to be with me
foundation on lies
crumble to easily
turning to dust in my hand
leaving me always wondering
what you have up your sleeve
Feel free when your with me
Let my hair flow gently in the breeze
walking next to you
Confident there are no lies between us
Honesty builds the trust
that takes us to new levels
Without this no love can exist
Molding us into empty shells
Just feelings tattered by simple words
Fractions of us
Blinded by small motions
Always taking them for granted
Feeling all these damages emotionally
Pushing you and all them away
I stand guard, with nothing left to prove
Standing,pouring myself out into your hands
Just seeping through these sands of time
Burying myself deeper
Reminders all to close to my heart
Always looking for a fresh start
Hoping I can make the right turn
That will get us back to the beginning
So we may start over
Not holding back
Leaving no regrets

Beneath My Dreams

Rain on my windowpane
Like Shattered and forgotten dreams
To many to count
We are ever soaring
Just reaching higher
The cracking lightening
Casting shadows on my walls
Snapping me back to reality
Uncovering secret desires
Stirring the dying fires
Bracing my soul
For the impact that will rock me to my core
In the eye of the storm
Where my heart belongs
Calm and warm
I'm not cut out for this life
Always guessing
So busy questioning
I can't help but to do the opposite
Its safe no one will be expecting it
I know I should bow out
Find my exit
But I can't
I keep grasping for straws
One must hold the key
The answers to it all
Maybe I've held on to tight
Damaging the things that were out of my sight
Only now coming into focus
It wasn't just my dreams redirected

Let it be this way

Shaking my heart leaving me full of fear
I miss you, wish you would come along
This journey is lonely
I know everyone underestimates us
It must make them all hate us
Keeps them talking behind our backs
Just wish you would catch me
keep me from falling
Head over heels for you
Come to me take this pain away
Its heaven in your arms
Making me happy being somewhere
Anywhere with you
Lost in this dream state
I'm going to carry you around with me
In my head, In my heart
I'll wear you around my finger
Keeping you close to me wherever I go
While we keep growing older
Rocking chairs in all, watching children grow
I won't miss a moment of your life
I wouldn't trade it for anything
I'd never give up even when there is no fight left
But my heart is true, left only for you
All I want to do is to make you happy
To make you mine forever
Everything involves you
without you I'd break in two
I'd loose control
All I want to do is lay here with you
Dream the days away
Floating high on these feeling
Every moment counts
Telling time by these
I just always hope nothing ever changes
Let us remain this way forever
Let it always be this good

Drink Up

Lie to me
Break the tie that binds
Easily distracted
By passerby
Watching this self destruction
Unable to bring the light to surface
Blinded by confusion
Its only just moments of self doubt
Unaware by the complications
They mix so well on the rocks
Staring through this glass
Seeing you sideways
Its not always as it seems
Blurred, nonfunctional
Distance isn't enough
Looking out into this mess
Its just an other's view
these feeling won't go away
They linger on
While sipping on regret
Misjudgment creeps up on me
Wondering why I keep on waiting
When did my dreams go missing
Lounge music echoes in the background
Taking over this smoke filled air
I can't keep giving up on me
Drunk off the bitterness that ran over
Leaving me Hungover and unable to lift myself
Off this floor again

My Poem to You

These words I hold are true
In your eyes I can't ever lie
Chances we've taken have lead us here
Young love, I want to grow old with you
Getting through my day
Waiting till the next moment I am with you
You make me smile with a passing thought
These  walls you've made into a home
And I am happy just being with you
I love laughing till I cry
Laying on the couch snuggled under your arm
The smell you leave on your pillow
The way you say my name
Life has been so full
You were unexpected
But exactly what I needed
We were made for one another
In this whole world we found each other
My soul mate, my best friend
You are everything I never knew I wanted
And here we are sharing our future
Hand in hand
We've created a life together
You let me pick the music
Listen to me sing loudly and out of tune
Smile when I pout
You would give me the moon the stars
And everything in between
In exchange for nothing
But you know I would do anything
To see you smile to hear you laugh
To know that my heart belongs to you
As the years pass I love to look back
see the path we've paved
see how far we've come
And I am just thankful to wake next to you
Each and everyday

Lost Spaces

Drifting into those lost spaces
Burning time like we have extra
looking to the sky
But it just comes tumbling down
Seeping through your hands
Just falling into the places in between
Its like being reborn
Without a new soul
We just hang on
Trying to make small changes
Hoping for better outcomes
We test limits
Breaking laws bending rules
Young still at heart
While bones ache, we push time
Challenging this life
Not giving into to the eternal sleep
Loved ones cling to your skin
But you feel like just the shell
Of the person that once stood here
Earth becomes quick sand under foot
And your heart turns to stone
Wishing for those lost hours back
Knowing you're to late
You spend your days watching seconds tick by
Wishing to feel brand new again
To start fresh
The ones that matter have come and passed
And you know you will soon
Joining them once again
So goes this circle of life

So Far Away

Sap drips from a broken branch
The breeze cold on my back
Leaving me chilled
Remembrance so hard
Your face slowly fades
Seems like just yesterday
You were here
Now nothing more than a passing memory
Pictures the only thing that remains of you
Changing seasons
Leaves are flaming
Skies of grey
Reminds me of the day you went away
So far from us
No phones can reach you where you are
So many things left unsaid
It seems I have lost my mind
Trying to figure out why
Letting in the pain a little at time
Fear the gates will open and wash me away
Drowned me in the mess you have left
I regret times past when you were here
On the outside looking in
But these chapters I must close
I carry you through my day
A little heavier in my heart
Kind words weren't enough
To ease this broken heart
Waking in the night screaming your name
Never have I felt so alone
When I could feel you in every corner of my room
Leaves me feeling cold inside
Letting the embers die along side you
Please tell me how to let go

The Break

Quickly we forget
How easily a young girls heart breaks
Words of steel
they leave the soul weak
Crying for more
Tasting the salty tears
Waiting for the safety
Wishing for love to remain
Rocks made of glass
Washed ashore
rejects of the sea
the same as me
Take in, swept away
Answers are buried
Solutions seem to extreme
Grey the walls I paint
Caught in this hell
The sweetness of the release
My mind twists the words
The truth becomes to hard to hear
The lies just easier to believe
Expectation like disappointment
The direction I have lost
Waiting for an exit light
But nothing appears
My world the chaos remains
To fight another day

Past

Tireless love
Tangled we lay
forever not a day less
Wilting flowers
Pressed between the pages
Words of wise men
That never knew the beauty of love
Just stories now
Haunting me
Like voices from my past
Its to late for them
Wounded hearts bleed
Swollen tears they fall
Streams filled of blackness
A heavenly disaster awaits
Bound by love
Often taken for granted
Wicked ways uncovered
Focus refrains
Clearly it sees
I am a dreamer
When life is to real
Backing into a corner
Hands slide over broken walls
Erase your mistakes
Block out the words
innocents under the covers
When will the scars fade
Under sun light they are exposed
Soaked up the pain
till nothing remains

Come To Me

Mistakes under moonlight
Burning the seconds into my mind
When your lost inside yourself
Come to me
We can be free
In this dream land just you and me
Block out the morning light
Take my hand
Like dust swept away
Rediscover feelings we try to hide
Bring peace
Surrendering to the beast
That we hold within
No more time spent unhappy
Come to me
I will show you pleasure amongst all your pain
Explore this heart that longs for you
Time so fragile
Slips by so easily
Slips till its gone
Nothing more than an empty vessel
The moment here now is special
And made just for us
Nothing changes forever
And nothing remains the same
We cannot pick what stay the same
But I pick you to go there with

Moments

Stars like paint on my ceiling
Point me home
I've come here by choice
Next to you
My hand is empty
I come bearing my soul
Take me to a higher place
Express my love to the fullest
Hopes lying in that moment
Tearfully hellos
Tender goodbyes
My world spins out of control
Waiting here for you
Directions lost
The moon blankets us softly
Seconds stand still
Tipsy time
Takes me away
Moments bridge together
In harmony we live
As if tomorrow never existed
We measure our love in actions
Words tend to fail
Sometimes ambiguous
Swept away in your arms
The doubt melts away
Life full of symbols
A heart, a ring
What stands the test of time
I hope its you and I

Brighter Days

heavy hearted no more
clouds have lifted
the sunlight shines down
Lighting the way to a better peace of mind
Ethereal and divine
A new day arises
My heart has composed a new song
Bittersweet, but so close to perfection
I will live in the moment
Becoming immersed in this happiness
Its only a taste
But I have been left out in the cold for so long
That this has been enough to move my soul
Life so full, so effervescent
I have laid in the shadows watching it pass by
I have made so many mistakes over my life
Each one I have felt the guilt
But today I will learn forgiveness
I will let them float away
Recovery isn't something that happens over night
For once I see the light in the tunnel
Dim but still there
As days pass on the light will become brighter
The meaning will makes sense
The dots will become connected
They will eventually fall into the place
My faith has been predicted
My course already set
Getting there will be a battle
Moving forward is all I can do
Each day will have its own struggle
But days like today, when I feel like anything is possible
I know that I can get there

My Daughter's Eyes

The woman I wished I was
Kind, caring, full of grace
A heart of gold
Beautiful on the inside
Wishing I could be more than what I see
Stronger than I feel
But in my daughter's eyes I am everything I wished I was
A hero, a teacher, a beautiful soul
Nothing less than perfect
In their eyes I see myself the way they do
Unbroken and full of love
When I think I need to be rearranged
And regret over flows
Looking in their eyes every choice I have made
Has brought me to them
In this world full of nothing
I am some one's everything
I am the sun that their world revolves around
Everything I teach them
Reflects in the women they will one day be
I set examples the best I can
In my daughter's eyes I show them anything is possible
Even when I am unsure
I show them respect for others is important
But not to forget yourself
When I am tired and the days don't seem to end
I watch my children sleeping dreaming big dreams for them
I lean over and kiss their foreheads
And hope I've done my best

My tears are my weapons
In a world full of walls
I have built them to keep myself safe
And have become my own worst enemy
Kept alone in here I hide
I have fought for this right
Or so I thought
Maybe its more of a surrender
waving my white flag as I retreat
Giving into my fears
Trying anything to numb whats felt
I take and stuff it down
Creating another wall in my defense
But time always cracks it
Leaving me here open
I swear I'm not as fragile as I sound
At least I have tried to convince myself of this
Its not the worst thing to be
But I refuse in my hour of need
The hope must lay within
Somewhere inside
There must be something that drives me
While I wait expecting it to come
I quit, I give up
If it all rests on me things may never be the same
I am just tired and the road is long
There is no escape
The truth I must face
I have always turned the other cheek
Waiting for the other foot to fall
I manage to crawl out from under it all these years
But today is an exception
My mind has been exhausted
And feels like hiding here
I stay hoping for the strength to get through another day

Summer's End

Tides rise and fall
Reminds me of you and I
The sand still has traces of warmth
Mental pictures of days past
Bring smiles to me
Yearning to relieve those times
Moments where I could hardly breathe
standing there beside you
I trembled  at the very thought
So caught up in your scent
Afraid to face you
You invaded every thought
My heart beating as loud as a drum
Terrified I would be spotted
That you would see all that I held within
I remember the day we first met
The summer heat it was so intense
But your skin still cool as ice
Your voice instantly hypnotized me
Never met another soul so deeply connected to mine
Through my eyes you could see yourself
And for once I needed someone
Consumed by you
But like summer everything must come to an end
I wouldn't trade my heartbreak for never meeting you
So I will sit here watching the sun set
Feeling the warmth on my face bringing you back to me
If only for a moment
And then release you again
Memories bad or good make us who we are
You've given a hand in building this person who is here today
Coolness is all that remains as the sun is gone
I open my eyes expecting to see my past
But staring out into darkness, I see a clean slate
I am finally seeing my future

Inside

Who do you see when looking at me
The person I desperately try to hide
Somehow I have painted my insides back
Containing myself there
The darkness has invaded every cell
Would you still love me if you knew my truth
That I crawl in my skin
The pain has permeated my heart
Love no longer lays there
Its been replaced by the darkness too
I'm stuck in this place there is no way out
I can't seem to dig myself out of this mess
Instead I dig deeper in
And feel no hope
My words lay flat
This silence I embrace
Frost leaves traces on my lips
Racing thoughts
No light in all this darkness
I find comfort being here alone
No one to expose my secrets
They say I need to snap out of this
It easier said then done
When all  I feel like doing is letting go
Slipping further into myself
Please do not pull me out
I'm seeking shelter here
The only place I have ever known
Maybe its all just in my head
Call me crazy
Label me if you must
If this helps you to cope
But I will retreat
This smile I wear is all fake
but it makes you all happy to see
So I will pretend to be anything but me

Release

desperately seeking the answers
The world holds back for no one
And I am not an exception
Tear me down build me up
Disposable like a paper cup
Laughter and pain
They seem to be so much the same
Faking this seems so unfair
Watching you to act like you no longer care
Cables and wires connect us
like we've been made into a machine
Your words cut like a warm knife through butter
And I can't take this no longer
I stand up to fight but there is no need
You've pushed the buttons to release me
I do not feel the need to justify my behavior
In my eyes I have become a stranger
I no longer know this person in the mirror
Inspiration found out of desperation
The insanity runs wild
The static takes over
Ruining everything that went before
Smashing whats to come
The course seems never ending
And the I'm sick of pretending.......

Another place another time
I just can't seem to keep up with myself
Racing at a steady pace
There is always something
So tired of playing pretend
I just can't keep up
I fall behind
Disappointment again
I believed in myself
Foolish mistake
I am worried about the things that I can't change
Dreamless sleep
Giving up the things I have wished for
The wonders I have yet to complete
I give up and start again
A new day a new hope
Lost and left figuring this out
Not really sure where to go from here
Stuck in the middle trying to cross over
Trying to make the switch to the person I wish to be
Even though this has always been me
Afraid to show that glimmer of hope
Let down my friend, left alone again
There has to be a voice of reason
I've always rested on the borderline
The world moves on while I'm worried I'll be left behind
Quickly sinking this boat I must abandon
There must be a higher reason
I am just to busy to see
Worried for my own well being
Concerns go unnoticed
But I push on anyways
Hoping my hard work will pay off
Just another face in a drowning sea
Mixed emotion, words fail me now
I'm crushed beyond fixing
I have put my own needs on hold
And it has left me Drifting
Its all in the waves
Darkness rests on the horizon
Skies furry opens upon us
Further I go
Hoping for an island
Wishing for a savior
The lightening exposes the vastness that surrounds

Casting shadows on the wall
creating something out of nothing
It all started with a kiss
And somehow has lead to this
Pulling my insides out
Trying to prove there is a heart that beats
I may push you away
My words may seem cold
My tongue like ice
But I've been forever waiting
On a man like you to melt into me
To bring me to life
I've always been a loner
I can't express why
And with you I can no longer hide
Bringing light to the shadows
They have haunted me
For so long I have been alone
Always on my own
Finding someone like you
to fill those empty spaces
Brings new meaning
Makes me feel so alive
I smile when I hear your name
Your voice like a song
Its crazy to have come this far
Leaving that unknown person
The person who is the former me
I burst through my shell
I'm never going to imprison myself again
I have finally been given the courage
To not settle, to be happy
That's the way I feel when I am with you

Pacing these floors
Walls closing in
Forgotten time
Where have you been
Restless, tired, unable to sleep
Minutes to hours seem to slip
I question myself
taking more than I can give
Broken all these years
No one understands
I realize I stand alone
Caring takes to much
I move a little closer
Hoping to feel your heat
Maybe to feel anything at all
But you pull away leaving me cold
Leaving me on my own
I choke on my words
Pain burning holes through me
The happiness seeps out
Leaving me empty
What do you have to say
Now that you've drop this weight
I can not longer escape my loneliness
It confronts me
Drifting into madness
You have become so relentless
Picking me apart
Giving me no direction
Lacking motivation
Wishing to wash me clean
I know there was a time
A place that we would lay without a fight
Time grows further between us
I keep tripping over these foolish things
I thought you could change a thousand times
Maybe you did and I didn't
stuck in the past
Frozen in those moments that hurt me most
For every 20 good moments it may erase one bad
But who's counting?
I wish I could just forget all about it
So there is no excuse for your absence
While I am here needing you
Pull me out of this darkness
Just set me free before I unravel
Before I'm nothing but a string

I stand in the rain
Waiting on you
Our time passes slow
Creeps up beside us
Trading the spaces
We believe that its all possible
Maybe then it was
But we crawl on, bit by bit
IT keeps us breathing
Keeps us hoping
That time will tell us which way to go
But its never that easy
Eventually we have to make a choice
Even if we miss the boat
There is always a tomorrow
So hold me close don't let your hands slip
It may feel wrong but at least we're not alone
And someday we'll know that its more than this
That being free was only fun till I was caught by you
And that was my choice
I made it so long ago
We may have changed
And life might have made this so
But with you I have the strength to renew everyday
You have brought your share of complications
I know I am not free of burden myself
Together it just makes sense
Apart just a mess
A Hurricane wouldn't stand a chance
We spin ourselves out
With every crack we grow
Learning that life and love are not pretty
But if its real its worth it......

Strength burns within
I'm not what I always seem to be
And my heart often lays to far from my head
Stranger to myself
When the pain fills the void
I stay standing not letting it knock me
Hanging on till that better day
My skin hurts and my hair falls to the floor
Life has a plan, and I'm afraid this is mine
But I am still here thankful for another day
I'm a women and my scars tell my story
There are to many odds that are counting on me to fail
But lucky there are plenty that aren't
I commit to myself to making myself better
Let the sunshine roll over my skin
Warming me and freeing the ache that lays in my bones
I stumble on lazy days from time to time
My body just says no when my mind yells go for it
Deep down I know I can
without me this world would be a different place
I feel some days letting my hands slip free
But I know its not that easy
A life where darkness reins
I put a smile when the feelings are absent
The power I hold is always leaping from me
I paste stars where there is none and wish on them
Is this all that's meant from me
I sing when I feel like I am dying
I dance instead of crying
letting go of the things that drag me down
Freeing my body of the weight of sadness
It poisons my heart
I pull it together when it stretches so far
I balance my sickness
And direct myself out of self pity
I scream in the wind and it carries it away
I need help but to proud to ask
So I'll keep on fighting till my last breathe
And know, I might dangle close to the edge
I will never let go

Powerless to your will
Oh little white pill
You've been there more than a dozen times
Picked me up shook me off
Made me new, made me forget about the pain
Flying and not caring about ever being grounded
I've found myself pleading for your surrender
But I turn to you instead
Color runs dry
opaque and bleak
there seems no end in sight
Sleepless warrior
Pacing the same streets, familiar corners meet
And there you were
Loving you more than I ever loved myself
You flow through me connecting the loose ends
Making me feel brighter than the sun
Lying to myself this will be your last time
But you infect my mind consuming every itch
Your the reason I have failed
And yet I cannot leave you alone
I felt the cold and do not like it
You quiet the voice in my head
The one that tells me I am not good enough
You empty my emotions
The fears I let go
Comfort in the shadows
My name no one needs to know
You've become my hand to hold, Why can't you let go
Your hooks deep in my skin
You wash through my veins
And I feel complete again
White powder your test I will fail
I can't get you off my mind
Everyone else has come and gone
You've driven the wheel steering me here
Sightless, tilting, wavering
Your spell has been casted
My demons lay still
while you're here creating new ones
Taking advantage of my weakness
Just this one last time I will give in
And let you wash me away....

Shatter

Its hard to make things work
A key in a door not a match
Maybe I'd be better off shattered
The slightest words hurt
The deepest emotions felt
When there seems like there is nothing left
Another cut, a jab slicing me down
Maybe there is no reason to stand
Behind it all, drilling through
You think it will make a difference
it only makes you weak
And the disappointment is to bitter to taste
I'm not strong enough to hold this world up
These shoulders have been over loaded
I feel if I am about to shatter
even if I don't mean too
Its taking all my strength just to keep up
I'm unable to run this marathon
I have no truth in a room full of lies
They black out everything I have meant to say
Maybe I'm one too
Just a whispering rumor floating around these walls
My heart, Broken at the seams
Its only a matter of time
Before it shatters
Wake up before the road ends
The cliffs are high and the bottom is endless
If only I could go back before I made that wrong turn
Mistakenly lead down the wrong paths
Here anyhow, faithless I hang
In my head I am anywhere and everywhere
Opening my eyes I am somehow frozen in time
The ice shatters and the truth confronts me
The sadness consumes me
Happiness in ignorance somehow I was awoken
Wish I could go back
I wish my hopes weren't shattered
By my own doings, I was wrong
And I've known this all along

Pieces of me fall away
Some for heartbreaks
others for lost friendships
Trading a few in for someone who was never true
More for a person I never really knew
Pieces drift circling around me till they are gone
A part goes to the ones who made me
Some to the falling tears that keep me human
A few for true loves touch
More than just a few for the little ones
That have they're little hands around my heart
Strip away the ones that I have never needed
The pieces I never really like anyhow
Saving only the special ones for the ones that count
Giving away pieces to the ones that need me
And nothing to those that don't
Shedding whats always been there
Dancing on my finger tips till they disappear
Some for the sadness that lingers nagging in my head
A piece for the happiness that lays with my family
They seem to fall all around me
I am surprised I have anything left
But there it is
Some for the sunshine that brings me to life
Always a piece for those who make me laugh
That bring light to my world
Unfortunately some for those who have back stabbed
And have misused and tangle my trust
The ones that have broken certain piece of me
I willing give those back to them
A piece goes to my white dress and bands of gold
Your hand in mine
Eyes of wonder and smiles that melts my heart
I gladly give the very last of my being for all of you
But still there seems to be one last piece
And to my surprise its just for me

My heart grows distant as days pass
And I'm tired of being alone
We live together but not side by side
Miles separate us and grow further apart
Where have we gone to
My love that question echoes through me
Empty without you
Quiet the house has become
No laughter in the house that once was a home
The sunset are lonely
no good morning kiss
You are in a hotel somewhere I don't know
The phone calls are distant
But still I sit and wait for them each day
I know each week you'll be coming home to me
and yet its like we are stranger
Tip toeing around each other
Afraid to move for this might just be a dream
And I will awake and our bed will be empty
I have never thought our love would turn on us
That we would be struggling for a meaning
for any reason to come together
I smile while I cry inside
Tears of being abandond knowing you'll be gone soon
You do this for us so I bite my tongue
With each goodbye a piece of me goes with you
And you'll call again and the words will fall in between
we struggle not to fall apart
Stuffing the words down to keep it together
The phone will ring and I will tell you what you need to hear
I am doing fine
When I am screaming inside come home
I'll make you feel like its alright
You need to know just one thing before your gone again
I miss you so very much and my life just isn't complete without you
So please just come home so we can be a family again
The way we were meant to be

Maybe I am where I suppose to be
Always looking back at the roads I've chosen
They seem to have lead me here
Stuck in the middle of no where
Regret is so easy
Being accountable is not
Longing to be forgiven by others
Its easier than forgiving yourself
Lessons are only taught through living
Expectations always looming over head
Life like swirling in the drain
Like hiding under covers
Dancing blindly whirling though this world
The less time you have the faster it seems to go
Yesterday I wish someone had told me that
It tears me apart that today is all over
And Tomorrow is not a promise
I walk on tip toes
I walk on tightropes
Without a net
The threat I might fall hovering on my back
And I can't help but look behind myself
Back to what lead me to this point
Do I give up? Bite my lip and hope it goes away
If I keep pushing down these feelings
eventually they will over flow
spilling out unable to push all that has surged
I stand like a soldier, trying not to show my fears
That maybe I've made a mistakes
And I'm not sure I am ready to admit it
So move forward go on pretend nothing lays beneath
That nothing has jaded me that my sun still shines

Reflections
Just mirror images of what we appear to be
Escaped by our reality
Flashes exposing restless souls
Take a good look
Its what surrounds that makes us whole
Maybe its fate or a misunderstanding
Whatever it may be or what it might not be
still its who we have become
so suffocating
Like treading water with no land in sight
The wait is the hardest part
Idly passing time
Slowly it slips falling away
Playing me like a broken instrument
Never in tune with you
But still you strum on
Broken strings and all
Waiting to see if you play your cards
Always dealt the joker, I fold
I fell like a token in your game
But this is life
If not mine then who's?
Dreams painted by you
images thrown together
Blurred visions turned to cloudy skies
Confused why things always happen this way
How I had everything and nothing all at once
A mere blemish in the world
Always searching as I wandered
Fighting to get outside
To be away from all that separates us
Truth is we are not going anywhere
We have become to tied down to all that surrounds us
Its all taken ahold, embedded itself
Call it what you will I won't take all this blame
I have bleed and shed my fair share of tears
And yet I still stand here.....