Flattered by the games that you played
Stepped in line
Fell out of place
Rewind to a better time
And wonder why it can't always be like that
Days slip and never repeat
Grateful for the beautiful you
Uncomplicated by me
Lazy morning laying still next to you
Rendering me helpless in you arms
Why can't it be as simple as a first kiss
Reminders of days long gone
Traces of what we once held
Develop a sense a belonging
Stale the emotions lay
It hasn't always been this way
Tales of lovers past
Gives new meaning of forever
What we have is only a moment in time
in the end it will still go on
The sun will still rise and set
Embrace the moment of us as of today

Paper thin
I see right through you
Didn't take long to stumble on the truth
The expression or lack there of
shows no remorse
I throw you to the wind
Hoping it blows you far
Far away from me
If you loved me why won't you let me go
You remain my anchor
Dragging me down
I don't want to be you last option
When I make you my first
Its sad, someone like me sinking so
Pack it in fold it up
No one is buying into you
Your false presence has been witnessed
Now let it go
The only fooling go on here is you
And no one is believing what you have to say
No longer do you exist in the state your in
Let the sea carry you out
Take you and wash you clean
Make you into a person I'd like to know
There is no way I'd claim you as you are
After I've hollowed myself out
Gave you every piece
Let me go, let me rise
Carry on with my life
Erase the very thought of you
And the way you flipped my world upside down
I'll Send you on your way,
its how you always intended this to be

I'm not ready to bear my soul
to cross that line
Exposing all that's inside
For those to judge me
Examining each word
I embrace the chance to be heard
After being silent for so long
opening these doors may bring to much attention
I'm always afraid I might disappoint
Reading to much into the lack of interest
Opening myself up brings the chance of regret
The heart wants what it wants
My dreams have always seemed to out of reach
There has always been a piece of me unexposed
Hidden from the world, from those I have loved
I'm too gentle to be thrown into this world
Its crazy how long I have been undiscovered
Hiding myself undercover
Quietly I slip through these cracks
making myself blend in the background
Center stage has never been my scene
Keeping my passion from the eyes of others
When the attention is on me I find
I began to choke On the words that long to escape me

push me,
see what you will walk away with
I will tell you it won't be me
From now on I will let the phone ring
messages you left blink on and on
refusing to let you speak
There is no reason for you words
they only tear me down
make me think I am never good enough
Striving to always make you smile
while I get nothing in return
You pull me in trapping me
every time I know better
but still I come back to you
I can't ever seem to let it go
The words repeat in my head
The ones that hurt
That rip me apart
Your selfish ways might catch up to you
Maybe one day someone will do what you've been doing
I wish I could be so cruel as you
Dragging me down to this depth of hopelessness
Thinking there is no silver lining
things will never unwind
That my hands will remain glued to yours
Every time I think I am stronger than you
Things become clear
The Vail will be lifted
and I will see you for what you really are
Maybe I'm not always as kind as I think
I speak out of anger
Trying to hurt and demean you
Putting you back in your place
We remain, even when we do so much wrong
Toxic and yet we are drawn to one another
Thinking someday that we will make this right
So keep pushing me till we reach our limits
Maybe we'll break
but chances are will be here to see another day

how many days pass
how many people walk on by
I cannot believe anything
its all so fleating
There is a storm blowing
Turing me around
facing a new direction
And off I venture into a new life
You make it so hard to talk
I scream only to be heard
But thats ok
I prefer it that way
I fight to be on top anyhow
A storm that twist me
spitting you out
Making you find your own way
To many excuses made
To many words misplaced
Its hard to love unconditionally
To make someone your everything
failing to make me see
What the talks all about
Thought I could fit our pieces
maybe we turned out to be to different
Its ripping me apart to know this to be true
I'm just wasting my time
Trying to get us to fit
Its killing me
BC I have trusted you so much
I believed in you
And all the promises you made
Tasting the memories
Bonds we tied
Its only a picture
taken in its truest form
You've turned me inside out
Exposing nothing new

Seasons change and so have I
I have grown from a girl into a women
In a blink of an eye
And you have missed it all
You weren't there, you let me down
Anger surges through me
when I think of the time lost
How selfish it must have been to hurt someone like me
You were suppose to be my safety
instead you were the stone dragging me down
I missed you or at least the the idea of you
I am not blind
My heart was always open
Now closed and locked away
The destruction you have caused
has left us empty
Where were you when I needed you
Too worried about yourself
And what others are willing to do for you
Try doing it for yourself
Maybe you'd be happier with your self worth
And stop tearing mine down
Trying to rob me of my happiness
Taking what isn't meant to be yours
Just so you can fill what you are lacking