Are you there?

Reaching out in the darkness
I feel your touch
My fears suddenly melt away
Testing my boundaries of faith
I hear your voice
Telling me you've never left
You hear my words
I whisper when I am alone
How can this be you were just here with me
But its been years since you took your last breath
Your voice starts to drift further away
I can no longer make out your face
A blur among the tears that stain my pillows
I grab for you wishing to hold you here
Selfishly wanting you to never leave
My mind and my heart play tricks on me
One second I am fine the next I am not
It was so long ago but the wound still bleeds
How does this hurt go away
Or will it always be this way
You leave me traces
So I know that you were here
Every time I feel you've gone
I smell you and feel the warmth of your embrace
Its only for a moment
But its been worth the wait
My heart aches for you
My life moves on
Even though you are gone
Gone to a place I cannot go
Off to the unknown
When I doubt that I will feel you again
I start to wonder
"Are you there"
But I know the truth
That I try to conceal
You are gone, my memories are now where you belong

Moving Forward

Be me, the haunting ghost that’s left behind

The heart that has turned to stone

Unrecognizable, I stand alone

Crossing those same lines

Pushing past the unknown

Determined to make it on my own

Fighting back all those lonely fears

That I could possibly succeed

Starring myself down

Facing the doubt that lingers on

Pushing it aside and taking that leap

To better myself to make me over

I may be naïve to think

That things are beginning to falling into place

I don’t believe in anything I cannot feel

Even if it is not entirely real

Reflection of the years behind

And all the things I could have been

Today starts with one step

That will eventually lead to another

Leading me on a journey

An exploration of who I am

The things I could be capable of are endless

As long as I believe and never stop moving

My journey will have

A destination

A future

I will be who I have always meant to be

Just by moving forward.