What It Is

Ignorantly blissful of what the future holds

The wrong turns you will make

The hearts you will unknowingly break

The sadness you will endure

When everything becomes real

Outside in the world

The night passes quickly to day

People you love some will go

While others will stay

Faces will fade to grey

While relationships grow

You learn the truth

Behind the white picket fences

Where everything was painted perfect

The work that goes into loving another

The fact that not everyone stays together

Sometimes forever is a blink of an eye

While others cherish their time

Till the day they die

You will think you can be anything

And you will find the only hand that holds you back

Is your very own

The taste of love can be as bitter

As the words you speak from hate

The keys to happiness are different for everyone

Since the locks to our hearts are not the same

It is easier to blend into the crowd

Than to stand for what you believe

You’ll forever be figuring out who you’re supposed to be

Mistrust Brings

The paper thin layers of mistrust

Peel away

Flaking and cracking around our feet

A smile could be hurtful

A friend can betray

Words are stains on a heart

That can never be erased

Restless we lay

Recounting those days

Before the smiles faded away

Tender and young

With the lights in our eyes

Shinning like brilliant stars

Glistening waters

Some things are what they should be

Nothing more but always something less

Resting on hope

That tomorrow will bring something better

That time will somehow become slower

We will have more space to run

And experience the dreams

That wakes us from our restless sleep

That yesterday can be left behind

Shedding our pain

Leaving our disappointments

For another to carry on

To wrestle with themselves

The right and the wrong

The dark to the light

To survive

When everything screams to give up

Sometimes pain wreaks us

Other times the weakness becomes strength

When we most need it

Set Free

Testing boundaries

Walking the tight rope

Between right and wrong

Values wavering

Under pressure I sink

Looking for a warm embrace

Mistakes we are unable to recover from

We stumble in and out of darkness

Bound by desire

Needing to feel wanted

Passion that is held on the tip of my tongue

Lost in the changing tides

That sweeps me, pushes and pulls me in

Against my will or so it seems

Waiting in the back all along

Coming undone at my seams

Clawing to get out

The freedom that lies behind these eyes

Waiting for my world to unravel

To stand at the unknown

Willing to face my regrets

To have the world judge me

People just need acceptance

That they will be unhappy

To make others smile

But not me

I get lost in the haze

The lines drawn in my heart

Slowly fade

Unable to focus on what’s true

What’s considered right

Always afraid to hurt others

While my scream echoes

Throughout my body

My fears bubble behind my lips

Afraid to say them

To make them true

As if the words were made of fire

Burning through till my insides are smoldering ash

About to be blown away

To be scattered around me

Till there is nothing to tell

Just the silence seeping through the breeze

The One

Prisms of pain dangle from the window sill

Casting rainbows of a paler shade of me

Dancing in circles they twirl

Reminders who I used to be

And what is left that stands empty

In the darker corner of the room

Seeking shelter in the shadows

Covering my shame with the reflections of others

To only see what they want to see

What has become cracked and faded

Remains hidden in the comfort of my lovers eyes

The imperfections covered by his hands

Lips kiss the marks left by words of others

Understanding there is nothing left to put back together

That the pieces that glitter in the light

Broken fragments but still beautiful

That the roads of life have left their tracks

Along this person I embody now

A stranger, who would know?

That I have forgotten the path home

Amongst the weeds I have grown

I quietly rest my head

Waiting for my dreams to awaken

The one who comes to me

When my heart is breaking

And knows it has always been there

Just waiting for his taking

He taste the sadness that rest behind my eyes

Accepts the vision of my world is vacant

Dark and cold

His warmth, frees me

Fills the craving that tears at my seams

The need for comfort without a touch

He gives me the air to breath

The gentle breeze to carry me away

Far from the damages I have caused

The understanding to know there is more to me

Than the wall I hide behind

He reaches into the unknown

Able to penetrate my soul

The person I have search my whole life for

Finally taking his place by my side