Don't let me leave
Stop me before I get to the door
My heart is here
Invested in you
But my pride and anger gets in my way
Tearing me apart
Beating me down
Please keep me close
You will miss me
And I won't let myself walk back to you
I am to proud to admitt I was ever wrong
Wrapped up in disaster
Swipt out to sea
twisted by desire to be something different
Refusing to stop reaching
I always have quit to easily
Letting you down quietly
Wishing to not dissapoint this time
But its  inevitable no matter how hard I have fought
I can see through you
And you are let down
But please don't let me walk out on us
Throw me a lifeline of forgivness
You know I am sorry even if my mouth cannot form the words
I am lost and ashamed to hurt something so beautiful
To crumble
To shake our beliefs
I am standing here pausing for you
Waiting for your invitation to stay

Letters to nobody
Words for no one
promises are empty
emotions unspoken of
Time is lost
Plans are forgotten
drifted to the ground
Useless information
Speaking in silence
Conversations run dry
Patience is all gone
Screaming, pleading for anything
Despair fills the emptiness
Sickening reserve
Unleash me from this demise
Renew my strength
things that were never meant to be
Give me, instead of take
The paper is blank
The letters erased
Leaving traces of they're former selves
reminiscent of what they were
Before they became these words to nobody
Meaningless fill
Tasteless energy
"The End" brings us no steps closer to closure
I may have grown
My ways may be wiser
But, these words were meant for nobody
And that is just who you are.

I have spent most of my life
trying to write this song that fills my heart
The tune that carries me through my day
It lifts the curtains, letting the sunshine through
Surprises me, turning my night into day
Giving me hope that things will get better
When there is no life raft in sight
I hum the melody like its an old friend
Been there this whole time, keeping me company
When things seem out of control it keeps me grounded
It just makes sense like nothing else
completing me
Ending this silence I have carried for so long
Reminding me to keep going
To continue to breathe
Its not the end just bc the song is over
Making room for a new one to begin
Taking hold of me
Riding the highways of my soul
Set on cruise control, taking it slow
Enjoying the scenes of my life
The memories like painted pictures in my mind
They surface, rising to the top
just reminders of brighter times
The music in my heart never skips a beat
The glue that holds me together
Giving me the hope I am stronger than I appear

I laugh when I am nervous
Seems to always happen at the worse time
But this always makes you smile
I cry during movies or when I am scared
And you find this endearing
I'm not perfect
But you love me anyhow
I yell when my anger gets the best of me
But I love with every tip of my being
You know my hatred stems from hurt
And accept that's the way it is
You ride this out
Full of highs and so many lows
I am a ticking ball of emotions
And still you play my games
You don't seem to mind the whirlwinds I create
The fact that I spin you upside down
You just tighten the seat belt
Taking it all in stride
Around my heart I have built a wall
You've managed to build a door
You know it to be true that I am not as hard as I act
That its a front
And I thank you.
Thank you for staying by my side
For loving me for the things I am
And forgetting the things I am not

You're so dramatic
Whoever said this was about you
These words I write
They flow deeply from my soul
From the darkness in my mind
My heart pumps these emotions
bleeding violet
spilling out these letters to complete a thought
But they are not of you
Trying to release this yearning
It tears me apart from my center
Bending and manipulating all that branches out
Rising up till it reaches its peek
Rolling and tumbling around inside my head
Till they make that connection
Circulating around in my body
Swirling around touching and illuminating every fiber of me
Holding this in till I think I may break
Finally, reaching to my finger tips
Where they form the finally thought
Before striking the paper
The maddening itch has subsided
As the words emerge
I am set free
No longer they're prisoner
This was only for me

I always thought of the places we'd go
Realizing I was always to busy looking elsewhere
To take the time to see what was already here
Where will we be when the dust settles?
All the dreams we carried seem to have disappeared
Not sure if we ever understood what growing up was
I hardly recognize us these days.
Its like we're playing roles that someone else picked out
We seem to have faded into the background
Growing more distant from those lives
Its hard to compromise with these walls closing in
Do you see or are you too consumed with playing your character?
I miss late nights dancing barefoot under stars
Drinking each other up
till the sun peeked from under the covers of night
Please remind me, the way to be
The steps retraced back to us
Untamed just waiting to be named
enamored by the possibility of what lays ahead
Living in that moment
Tomorrow, what was that?
Just a fleeting thought
Close your eyes and picture this
Imagine for a moment if you will
A path back to those days
Would you take my hand and accompany me?
Paint me a picture of what you see
I wouldn't give up what we have today
I just need to be reminded that this isn't all I am
That laying beneath this is the foundation of us
That we can still be those people
I wouldn't trade in my life for any yesterdays
But a visit now and then
To be reminded of how we felt, how we smiled
I could live with that, so please remind me.

Kisses light fire
Tears like rain
If you're left standing
then I applaud you
My words can rip right through you
I have no problem tearing down another
just to save myself from drowning
But yet you still stay
My friend,my lover
Not sure if I would be so big
To stick around when things get so thick
I'm always testing
Just pressing you
Thinking eventually you will fold
That things will get so tough and you will make your exit
I know you can't be replaced
No one would stay in this beautiful mess I've made
Catching and releasing the pain
pardoning my sentence of the grief I have caused
You don't let a thing pass by you
making me accountable
Facing up and owning what I do to others

I feel for you
but this distance,it grows
Give me the strength to cut my loss
Pushed me to the breaking point
Screaming out loud for everyone to stare
This is a train wreck
Sick of lacking appreciation
I want to stop chasing this concept
The one that keeps me on this track
I always figure this has to mean something
To who I am uncertain of
Not sure of the craziness that travels through this mind
Imagine you always being so misunderstood
The madness that would dominate your world
Invading your sanity
I don't have another round
It would run right over me
Take every last bit