My Poem to You

These words I hold are true
In your eyes I can't ever lie
Chances we've taken have lead us here
Young love, I want to grow old with you
Getting through my day
Waiting till the next moment I am with you
You make me smile with a passing thought
These  walls you've made into a home
And I am happy just being with you
I love laughing till I cry
Laying on the couch snuggled under your arm
The smell you leave on your pillow
The way you say my name
Life has been so full
You were unexpected
But exactly what I needed
We were made for one another
In this whole world we found each other
My soul mate, my best friend
You are everything I never knew I wanted
And here we are sharing our future
Hand in hand
We've created a life together
You let me pick the music
Listen to me sing loudly and out of tune
Smile when I pout
You would give me the moon the stars
And everything in between
In exchange for nothing
But you know I would do anything
To see you smile to hear you laugh
To know that my heart belongs to you
As the years pass I love to look back
see the path we've paved
see how far we've come
And I am just thankful to wake next to you
Each and everyday

Lost Spaces

Drifting into those lost spaces
Burning time like we have extra
looking to the sky
But it just comes tumbling down
Seeping through your hands
Just falling into the places in between
Its like being reborn
Without a new soul
We just hang on
Trying to make small changes
Hoping for better outcomes
We test limits
Breaking laws bending rules
Young still at heart
While bones ache, we push time
Challenging this life
Not giving into to the eternal sleep
Loved ones cling to your skin
But you feel like just the shell
Of the person that once stood here
Earth becomes quick sand under foot
And your heart turns to stone
Wishing for those lost hours back
Knowing you're to late
You spend your days watching seconds tick by
Wishing to feel brand new again
To start fresh
The ones that matter have come and passed
And you know you will soon
Joining them once again
So goes this circle of life

So Far Away

Sap drips from a broken branch
The breeze cold on my back
Leaving me chilled
Remembrance so hard
Your face slowly fades
Seems like just yesterday
You were here
Now nothing more than a passing memory
Pictures the only thing that remains of you
Changing seasons
Leaves are flaming
Skies of grey
Reminds me of the day you went away
So far from us
No phones can reach you where you are
So many things left unsaid
It seems I have lost my mind
Trying to figure out why
Letting in the pain a little at time
Fear the gates will open and wash me away
Drowned me in the mess you have left
I regret times past when you were here
On the outside looking in
But these chapters I must close
I carry you through my day
A little heavier in my heart
Kind words weren't enough
To ease this broken heart
Waking in the night screaming your name
Never have I felt so alone
When I could feel you in every corner of my room
Leaves me feeling cold inside
Letting the embers die along side you
Please tell me how to let go

The Break

Quickly we forget
How easily a young girls heart breaks
Words of steel
they leave the soul weak
Crying for more
Tasting the salty tears
Waiting for the safety
Wishing for love to remain
Rocks made of glass
Washed ashore
rejects of the sea
the same as me
Take in, swept away
Answers are buried
Solutions seem to extreme
Grey the walls I paint
Caught in this hell
The sweetness of the release
My mind twists the words
The truth becomes to hard to hear
The lies just easier to believe
Expectation like disappointment
The direction I have lost
Waiting for an exit light
But nothing appears
My world the chaos remains
To fight another day

Past

Tireless love
Tangled we lay
forever not a day less
Wilting flowers
Pressed between the pages
Words of wise men
That never knew the beauty of love
Just stories now
Haunting me
Like voices from my past
Its to late for them
Wounded hearts bleed
Swollen tears they fall
Streams filled of blackness
A heavenly disaster awaits
Bound by love
Often taken for granted
Wicked ways uncovered
Focus refrains
Clearly it sees
I am a dreamer
When life is to real
Backing into a corner
Hands slide over broken walls
Erase your mistakes
Block out the words
innocents under the covers
When will the scars fade
Under sun light they are exposed
Soaked up the pain
till nothing remains

Come To Me

Mistakes under moonlight
Burning the seconds into my mind
When your lost inside yourself
Come to me
We can be free
In this dream land just you and me
Block out the morning light
Take my hand
Like dust swept away
Rediscover feelings we try to hide
Bring peace
Surrendering to the beast
That we hold within
No more time spent unhappy
Come to me
I will show you pleasure amongst all your pain
Explore this heart that longs for you
Time so fragile
Slips by so easily
Slips till its gone
Nothing more than an empty vessel
The moment here now is special
And made just for us
Nothing changes forever
And nothing remains the same
We cannot pick what stay the same
But I pick you to go there with

Moments

Stars like paint on my ceiling
Point me home
I've come here by choice
Next to you
My hand is empty
I come bearing my soul
Take me to a higher place
Express my love to the fullest
Hopes lying in that moment
Tearfully hellos
Tender goodbyes
My world spins out of control
Waiting here for you
Directions lost
The moon blankets us softly
Seconds stand still
Tipsy time
Takes me away
Moments bridge together
In harmony we live
As if tomorrow never existed
We measure our love in actions
Words tend to fail
Sometimes ambiguous
Swept away in your arms
The doubt melts away
Life full of symbols
A heart, a ring
What stands the test of time
I hope its you and I

Brighter Days

heavy hearted no more
clouds have lifted
the sunlight shines down
Lighting the way to a better peace of mind
Ethereal and divine
A new day arises
My heart has composed a new song
Bittersweet, but so close to perfection
I will live in the moment
Becoming immersed in this happiness
Its only a taste
But I have been left out in the cold for so long
That this has been enough to move my soul
Life so full, so effervescent
I have laid in the shadows watching it pass by
I have made so many mistakes over my life
Each one I have felt the guilt
But today I will learn forgiveness
I will let them float away
Recovery isn't something that happens over night
For once I see the light in the tunnel
Dim but still there
As days pass on the light will become brighter
The meaning will makes sense
The dots will become connected
They will eventually fall into the place
My faith has been predicted
My course already set
Getting there will be a battle
Moving forward is all I can do
Each day will have its own struggle
But days like today, when I feel like anything is possible
I know that I can get there