Reaching out in the darkness
I feel your touch
My fears suddenly melt away
Testing my boundaries of faith
I hear your voice
Telling me you've never left
You hear my words
I whisper when I am alone
How can this be you were just here with me
But its been years since you took your last breath
Your voice starts to drift further away
I can no longer make out your face
A blur among the tears that stain my pillows
I grab for you wishing to hold you here
Selfishly wanting you to never leave
My mind and my heart play tricks on me
One second I am fine the next I am not
It was so long ago but the wound still bleeds
How does this hurt go away
Or will it always be this way
You leave me traces
So I know that you were here
Every time I feel you've gone
I smell you and feel the warmth of your embrace
Its only for a moment
But its been worth the wait
My heart aches for you
My life moves on
Even though you are gone
Gone to a place I cannot go
Off to the unknown
When I doubt that I will feel you again
I start to wonder
"Are you there"
But I know the truth
That I try to conceal
You are gone, my memories are now where you belong
Pieces Of Me
Monday, June 23, 2014
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
Moving Forward
Be me, the haunting ghost
that’s left behind
The heart that has turned to
stone
Unrecognizable, I stand alone
Crossing those same lines
Pushing past the unknown
Determined to make it on my
own
Fighting back all those lonely
fears
That I could possibly succeed
Starring myself down
Facing the doubt that lingers
on
Pushing it aside and taking
that leap
To better myself to make me
over
I may be naïve to think
That things are beginning to
falling into place
I don’t believe in anything I
cannot feel
Even if it is not entirely
real
Reflection of the years behind
And all the things I could
have been
Today starts with one step
That will eventually lead to
another
Leading me on a journey
An exploration of who I am
The things I could be capable
of are endless
As long as I believe and never
stop moving
My journey will have
A destination
A future
I will be who I have always
meant to be
Just by moving forward.
Monday, July 1, 2013
What It Is
Ignorantly blissful of what
the future holds
The wrong turns you will make
The hearts you will
unknowingly break
The sadness you will endure
When everything becomes real
Outside in the world
The night passes quickly to
day
People you love some will go
While others will stay
Faces will fade to grey
While relationships grow
You learn the truth
Behind the white picket fences
Where everything was painted
perfect
The work that goes into loving
another
The fact that not everyone
stays together
Sometimes forever is a blink
of an eye
While others cherish their
time
Till the day they die
You will think you can be
anything
And you will find the only
hand that holds you back
Is your very own
The taste of love can be as
bitter
As the words you speak from
hate
The keys to happiness are
different for everyone
Since the locks to our hearts
are not the same
It is easier to blend into the
crowd
Than to stand for what you believe
You’ll forever be figuring out
who you’re supposed to be
Monday, June 10, 2013
Mistrust Brings
The paper thin layers of
mistrust
Peel away
Flaking and cracking around our
feet
A smile could be hurtful
A friend can betray
Words are stains on a heart
That can never be erased
Restless we lay
Recounting those days
Before the smiles faded away
Tender and young
With the lights in our eyes
Shinning like brilliant stars
Glistening waters
Some things are what they
should be
Nothing more but always something
less
Resting on hope
That tomorrow will bring
something better
That time will somehow become
slower
We will have more space to run
And experience the dreams
That wakes us from our restless
sleep
That yesterday can be left
behind
Shedding our pain
Leaving our disappointments
For another to carry on
To wrestle with themselves
The right and the wrong
The dark to the light
To survive
When everything screams to
give up
Sometimes pain wreaks us
Other times the weakness
becomes strength
When we most need it
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Set Free
Testing boundaries
Walking the tight rope
Between right and wrong
Values wavering
Under pressure I sink
Looking for a warm embrace
Mistakes we are unable to
recover from
We stumble in and out of
darkness
Bound by desire
Needing to feel wanted
Passion that is held on the
tip of my tongue
Lost in the changing tides
That sweeps me, pushes and
pulls me in
Against my will or so it seems
Waiting in the back all along
Coming undone at my seams
Clawing to get out
The freedom that lies behind
these eyes
Waiting for my world to
unravel
To stand at the unknown
Willing to face my regrets
To have the world judge me
People just need acceptance
That they will be unhappy
To make others smile
But not me
I get lost in the haze
The lines drawn in my heart
Slowly fade
Unable to focus on what’s true
What’s considered right
Always afraid to hurt others
While my scream echoes
Throughout my body
My fears bubble behind my lips
Afraid to say them
To make them true
As if the words were made of
fire
Burning through till my
insides are smoldering ash
About to be blown away
To be scattered around me
Till there is nothing to tell
Just the silence seeping
through the breeze
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